I looked at my calendar the other night and after a pretty barren month, it was nice to turn the pages and see lots of colors, arrows, and notes. I'm the kind of person who operates on goals, checklists, steps, and events. In short, it's very important to me to have something to look forward to. Yes, I have huge things to look forward to, like Heaven, but I'm talking about the short term. I'm happiest when I have lots of milestones, even if they seem small. But plans don't just appear; you have to make them, which is exactly what I intend to do. I'm planning ways to better myself for the everyday: studying languages, reading more, maybe even trying to learn an instrument. I'm planning to work a lot more on personal creative projects now that I'm out of school and can't use that as an excuse. I'm planning friendship gatherings and adventures (which may involve Shakespeare and/or fire). And, biggest and best of all, I'm looking at my options for leaving the country, planning how to travel and do new and exciting things!
But there were a lot of "I"s in that paragraph. I may have lots of plans (half of which I may never follow through on, because, let's be honest, I dream more than I do. I'm trying to change that.), but in the end, I don't get the final say. Proverbs 19:21 says, "Many are the plans in the mind of a man, but it is the purpose of the Lord that will stand." In other words, it's all up to God. It is my goal and my desire to have a more open and receptive heart to receive what God wants me to hear and wants me to do. But the Bible doesn't say "sit around and twiddle your thumbs, waiting for a neon sign pointing to your destiny," either. I hope I'm not wrong, but I'm going to continue to make plans, praying that they will fulfill the Lord's will, and if they don't, that He will prevent them from succeeding. I've already spent too much of my post-graduation time not doing anything productive. It's time to act, to get serious, and to make some real plans. There are a million things to look forward to. Now it's time to stop looking and start moving forward.
Until next Thursday,
Anna Beth