On top of all that, I have never pitched a movie idea before. Like, ever. And before yesterday or the day before, I didn't even have an idea to pitch at all. Luckily, there is that horror movie we tried to make (starring Sara) last year, which I also turned into a short story. I suppose I'll pitch that idea. Which is fairly good. BUT YOU GUYS!!!!!
These people I'm up against--and yes, it's a competition where only some of the pitches get to be produced--these people are...experienced. They make films and know how to do stuff. They're competent. I'm...not. I'm despicably inferior. And even though the movie pitch is optional and I inflicted this torture on myself for the sake of gaining experience and making an impression, the crew pitch on Wednesday is not. It's a mandatory pitch in which I try to sell not my idea, but myself. I'm basically standing in front of my class--just them this time--and telling them my skills and trying to get a decent job on some of the films that were voted to get produced. And everybody does get a job, but the better pitchers obviously get the better jobs--which are worth more points. And if I get a lower ranking job, I have to do more jobs to accumulate more points and blah blah blah blah dislike dislike dis-bloody-like! Excuse my language, British people.
But the day this was assigned, I was thinking, "There's no way I'm doing this. It's optional, so I won't. But I should. It would be a good experience. I should. But I can't."
And then I noticed a striking abundance of people wearing different Nike shirts (okay, there were like 3...but in a very short period of time). And all the shirts had one message for me: JUST DO IT.
So I will. I'll just do it.
What's the worst that could happen? I could humiliate myself. It could be like the Christmas musical all over again: my incompetence glaring in comparison to my classmates' brilliance. Or my pitch could get the vote, and I'd be forced to be the producer and be in charge of a crew of my classmates who know infinitely more than I do about everything IN THE WORLD!
The only thing I'm remotely good at is writing. Yay me. :p
Oh well. I'm going to do it anyway. Just do it. Keep Calm and Carry On.
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." --Philippians 4:13
Wish me luck,