Before I start this, I should probably cap this with a warning: I’m a girl in her first ever official relationship. I’m sappy. Can’t help it. Get over it. I’m going to talk about Mark, since he doesn’t read this… unless he’s a way better stalker than I think. Still- not everything will be about Mark, but he is the current main place of my thoughts. If you’re tired of me referencing him, go look over at the picture page. I will post New Orleans pictures in an hour or so, so enjoy those instead of this blog post! (If you’re reading the blog, you should still go look at pictures after… :) ) Now… onto the actual blog.
My song’s going to be a preface to this…
Daughtry- Start of Something Good
Anyway, tonight I’ve been thinking about the future. I know it’s a scary topic, but I recently realized that I’m graduating next year. I’m honestly scared. It’ll be ok, but I’m still uncomfortable thinking about parts of it. Specifically, the part involving my relationship with Mark. 2013 is in 9 months. If we’re still together in 9 months, what do we do? Do we try to make plans to be together? Do we break up at graduation, even if our relationship is something… special? We’re currently skirting around the topic of the future. I mean, we talk about meeting up in the summer, his retaking the MCAT (even though his score was very good), my taking the GRE, his med schools he’d like to apply to, my hopeful graduate schools, and the common places between them, but when it comes to actually talking about where we see ourselves in 5 years, 10 years, etc, we’ve simply not addressed it. Granted, a large part of us not talking about it is because we’ve only been in a relationship for a month and a half… These subjects don’t need to be brought up for a bit longer, and I’m completely fine with that.
That doesn’t mean I don’t think about it.
I have no idea where God will lead us after graduation. I have no idea how our relationship will change in the next months (although I certainly hope we stay together for a while. I do kinda like him. ;) But it’s like the song says- “I’m starting to believe that This could be the start of something good.” I’m hopeful about our relationship. I’m not thinking very far into the future, but I’m enjoying the time we have right now.
However, I realized tonight I do have a few answers. If we’re still together come graduation, would I be open to staying together? Without a doubt, yes. Would I want to be near him? Yes, although it may not happen, and at that point, I would be open to a long-distance relationship. Would I be thinking about something more? At that point, it’s possible. I really don’t know, and I’m not going to try to imagine it at all right now… Like I said, it’s WAY too early. But I feel that God is working in this relationship for a reason, and as long as we follow His path, everything will be ok, whether or not we’re still together as a couple or if we’re just friends.
Sara, my question for Question Tuesday is, “If you were in a fairly serious relationship in college (1 year +), and you both were going to graduate at the same time, how would you try to handle your relationship leading up to graduation and after?” I’m just curious to see what you’ll say (assuming you’re reading this…)
Until another time… Adieu.