Speaking of which, the BCM got a fish! Well, kind of. He’s here for 24 hours before going to live with one of my fellow BCMers, but his name is Encouraging Fish, and he makes me happy. ^_^
So… This post is being written ~40 minutes before the first Vandy v. UK basketball game of the season. I’m kind of going crazy right now. For one, I’ve been studying practically all day, so I couldn’t justify waiting 6 hours outside to get into the game. I will however be watching the game with a conflicted heart. Well, relatively. I’m not posting it on facebook because I don’t want to be booed (on either side), but I am rooting for Vandy in this game. It’s going to feel really weird seeing them play UK though, simply because the last Vandy/UK game I was at, I was rooting for UK knowing that I had applied to transfer to Vandy. Awkward. Regardless, I think I’ve made this paragraph weird enough for me to stop writing on it. I just kind of wanted to get that out there. Also, I wish I was wearing gold eye shadow right now. I like dressing up for games. =)
Anyway, to the main point of my post. This information does not leave this blog, capisce? (waits for nodding heads) Ok. If you don’t think you can keep a secret, don’t read the next 4 paragraphs.
You’re still reading, aren’t you? I thought so.
So all of my questions for Sara have kind of culminated up to what happened Thursday night. And while subconsciously, I realized it, consciously the thought was never in my mind. Yeah. To my point: I may have accidentally gone on a date Thursday night with my grad student friend Mike. Yeah. Yeah.
When I got out of my physics lab at 6 on Thursday, I had about 5 text messages from him, inviting me to dinner at 6, and we’ve had lunch/coffee before as friends, so I called him and told him I would go. About 5 seconds after I hung up, I made the connection. “Wait. Dinner. Boy & girl. Date?! Oh no.” Before that night, I had kind of suspected he may have been interested in me, so when I realized he had asked me out, I finally put the pieces together and realized what he was going toward. I did end up going to dinner, and the first half just felt so awkward. I mean, our conversation flowed as normal, but I personally just felt uncomfortable knowing that he probably thought of our dinner as a date, and he acted slightly differently too, making comments that seemed more and more like he liked me. By about halfway through, I just knew I had to set him straight, and I found a way to interject into our conversation that I was interested in someone else. He asked a few questions about him, and then about 5 minutes later, he said he had to go. Awkward. I’m glad we’re finally on the same page, but I simply have always thought of him as a friend because for the majority of the time I’ve known him, he’s had a long-term girlfriend. And I don’t want to be a rebound. Not to mention, I’m kind of in “deep-like” with someone else.
I know I did the right thing. It just kind of hurts that I was that oblivious to it. Well, relatively oblivious. I had a feeling before, but I let it slip. Hopefully we’ll still remain good friends, but that’s up to him. I do enjoy talking with him, and I don't want to let that go.
Ok, it’s less than 10 minutes before the game, so I have to go get glued to the BCM tv. I shall leave you with the song that has been stuck in my head all day… No, it’s not for Vandy, but regardless, I do know how to dougie. ;)
DISCLAIMER: The following song is not clean. You have been warned.
Cali Swag District- Teach Me How to Dougie